I have so much to write

Yet, I do not know where to begin🙂

First of all, hi and welcome to my new subscribers. Thanks to Osas, my subscribers tripled overnight and I’m so so grateful. However most of the new subscribers will think oh, this girl no dey write ni?😂. I’m sorry, it has been a rough couple of weeks.

Like the header says, I have a lot to write but I don’t know where to begin so I’m just going to write as the spirit leads.

I don’t know if it’s only me but adulthood will have you changing your life ambition over and over again and the worst thing for me (actually the best) is that my family keeps throwing their weight behind me on any decision. Like I’ll just ring my dad up and tell him, I don’t want to do this anymore, I want to explore this and he will be like, that’s fine, do whatever you want to do. Ah😂😮

Few weeks ago, I decided to go for something at the last minute, my family gave me go ahead but then, it was a risky endeavor (still is). I will write again in a couple days to give you the full insight.

Also, my neighbors moved out, so I’m the only one presently in the compound and I can’t do that. My area is kind of a risky place so I can’t afford to let people know that a single young woman is staying alone before they will come and raga bomi😂 (I can’t translate that sorry😂). So on my off days, I’ve been staying at a friend’s. The thing is, I was not friends with this person before, yes we talk and all but I won’t really consider them as my friend. When they learnt about me alone in the compound and I was also sick at the time, they insisted I do not stay alone🥺. And since I got here, it’s been “whatever you want, princess”.

This year has been stressful for me but looking back now, it would have been more stressful if people had not intervened. I have a lot of sweet people in my life right now and every one of them makes my life easier and better.

Contrary to last year when majority of people in my life just made it worse 😂. I make so much bad decisions when it comes to people so the only resolution I had this year is, if it’s not making me happy, it has to go. I don’t care what/who it is, you’re taking the exit. It has been working so far, I don’t need to be the strong one when it comes to my people anymore, I don’t need to be the adult, I don’t need to be the cushion and soft landing for people with mummy/daddy issues, I don’t need to step up and make decisions for people anymore, I am now allowed to be the funny, silly 21 (almost 22 years old) girl I am😂.

I have a 3 months old niece now and I’ve never thought I could love anyone more than I love myself. This little crying ass, poopy pants girl has proved me wrong🥺.

It’s 11:45 am right now and I’m laying in bed so grateful for the good people around me.

As the gworls say, I’m now in my feminine and soft girl era and I intend to enjoy it fully 🫶🎊. Feminine and soft girl era is costing me a lot sha😮 I got paid for something yesterday and I only got 200 naira change after I bought skincare (cries in ekun egbere😭) if my skin does not care with all my efforts, we will have problem oh😡

I will surely write again before this week ends.

Till then,

With love,

Adesewa ❤️