Love, Light and Everything Nice.

You’ve probably been wondering where I’ve been. Let me give you the short version.

You know what? Scratch that, you’re getting the painfully long one.

I have been doing a lot of surviving from the last time I wrote , not a lot of thriving. Life has been a bit crazy and rough and I can’t even lie, I was fed up and just wanted to lay in my dark apartment, close my eyes without sleeping and just fade into my bed. But I couldn’t do that, why? Because I’m an adult.

This adulting thing has been kicking my ass and while I don’t mind a little S&M, this was overwhelming. The constant struggle and pressure to be a better version of yourself, the pain (sometimes jealousy) of seeing other people thrive while you feel like you’re stuck in a place, the urge to do more and just ugh, push yourself. I pushed myself and I almost snapped my spine.

So I went home because as they say, there is love at home (and food, money even free Wi-Fi). I went home and it made everything better, I went home and remembered who tf I am because I’m not a fade-into-my-bed kind of woman, I am a stand-up-and-do-things kind of woman.

My dad said something that I constantly told other people to me, ‘the way you look at people and you think, they have their shit together, is the same way some people look at you and wonder how you’re thriving’ and it just did it for me.

And you know what, feeling and doing better goes hand in hand, if you stop moping and tell yourself I’m going to kick ass today, you’re going to do more than kick ass, you might even completely destroy the derrière.

I’ve missed here, I’ve missed writing so as I lay on the couch in this empty apartment, listening to my thoughts, I decided to share them with you ❤️.

With love,

Adesewa.