Peace.

To be honest, I wrote this header last week because I wanted to write about how much I am(was) at peace. Right now, I don’t understand what’s going on again.

All the same, I decided to keep the original title even though the content I intended is now mashed into another thing entirely.

You know when people say when something so good is going on for you, try to keep it under wraps so you don’t jinx it? Wrong, I wrapped it, kept it in foil paper, hid it in an old box, buried it where the sun don’t shine and it still got jinxed!

I was looking at a screenshot from last year where I told someone that I’m so at peace right now and barely 20mins later, I’ve never felt that kind of turmoil in my life. So when I had the same feeling again, I thought let me not pay too much attention to it, let me ‘ignore’ it and maybe it will last longer.

And it did, until it decided to unearth itself and bam, another whack in the face.

I’ve had writer’s block for a while now so I’m kind of grateful for the ‘back to reality’ slap across the face. Reminds me of when my ex would jokingly say he should make me angry whenever I was experiencing a block and he always did just that. I feel it’s more of an excuse to be an asshole but two things can be true at the same time.

As much as joy is a form of motivation, pain is a greater one.

To quote Hozier ‘the harder the pain, the sweeter the song writing’.

Song of the Month: Back to life by Soul II Soul.