What happens when the fixer is broken?
Two mails in a week? Wow, I know😂 but y’all my besties and I really needed to get this off my mind.
Savior complex, also known as the white knight complex or the messiah complex is when someone feels like they have to step in and fix things regardless of whatever is going on with them personally.
Now, I’m not new to this. I know I have it but I’ve never been this overwhelmed before. So many things needed fixing this week that I’m this close to breaking (broke my little finger sha😂). My emotional threshold is very high but for once in my life, I think I need to be fixed too. I had to fix too many things at once and even though I’ve successfully fixed everything tonight, I don’t feel any sense of accomplishment. I just feel exhausted and empty.
I would love to go into full details but also, I tried talking to someone earlier today and I was disappointed so I’ve learnt my lesson. The fixer is not a talker (Some Olivia Pope sh*t)😂. I’m going to wake up tomorrow and I’ll be fine (or not) and there will be something else to fix. A very toxic cycle but it is what it is.
I’m currently hiding in a room, listening to loud music from the party going on outside and drinking beer. Life will get better.
In the morning, it’s going to be alright ❤️.
A very short mail, I know.